If loving you is wrong.......

I tried so hard to act as if you never existed , but even God knew I couldn't do that. For six years people convinced me to let you go, they wanted me to stop loving you, but how can you not love something so precious as a child . That should be a crime for a mother to ask her child to do such a thing as that. I dont know if i could ever stop loving you . You are apart of me. I think the reason i was able to move on with my life and succeed is because i knew that a beautiful life was living because i made a loving choice to give you up rather than be selfish and make you apart of a cruel statistic . SABRINA I LOVE YOU and IF LOVING YOU IS WRONG then im fine with being WRONG ! Your life will live on through me !

Being apart of this Picture called "LIFE"

I cant seem to understand why bad things always happen to good people...... lately i have wondered is there anything i could do to help prevent the hurt and the catastrophic events that occur throughout life;but i cant . I don't have those kind of powers.... I don't have any powers. The only thing i can do is live to fight another day through the pain. I feel as if GOD is gonna work things out for those who trust and love him and do what he has command of us , but i don't know if  I can sit back and just watch things fall in place . I feel useless. We say that a picture can speak a thousand words. Well i believe that the picture called "Life" will never stop speaking , because everyday we add a little more graphics and illustration to it everyday!

Reality as we know it !!!: Open your eyes and see and stop pretending

Reality as we know it !!!: Open your eyes and see and stop pretending: "Why bother pretending you know who God is , when the truth is we probably dont know who the heck we are praising. I can truly say that the ..."

Open your eyes and see and stop pretending

Why bother pretending you know who God is , when the truth is we probably dont know who the heck we are praising.

I can truly say that the way i live my life is a prime example of that. So you are not by yourself i have been in church all my life and I still dont know where i stand with God . I do know one thing living for God is going to to be the hardest thing that a person could ever do . I have been trying for years and I always come back to the same spot in a miserable hell hole.

I just had that on my mind so everyone lets stop pretending and actually experience what God can do for us ............!

Broken into pieces like a puzzle , but I can't be fixed !!

Never in my life have i had an easy way out. It seems as if every time i do something that is beside myself , I tend to get the side bar menu of consequences as well. For so long i have asked the question "why me" God . Why did i have to experience all the tough roads in life , but then I think to myself that i experience alot of hurt in my life because of the decisions that i have allowed myself to make. People always tell me that im like this beautifully constructed puzzle but there..... is...... just a couple of pieces missing.

You know how you have that void in your heart and it hurst so bad that you end up doing some of the most ignorant things to fill that void,well that describes me to a T, but the question is not how am i about to use positive things to fill that void.The question is how did those pieces of my heart fade away.

Those so many events that i could share with you guys but i PROMISE it would take forever ! But I think my worst fear is living life with a broken heart that can not be put back together and loosing people that are important to me because i make there life miserable.