Broken into pieces like a puzzle , but I can't be fixed !!

Never in my life have i had an easy way out. It seems as if every time i do something that is beside myself , I tend to get the side bar menu of consequences as well. For so long i have asked the question "why me" God . Why did i have to experience all the tough roads in life , but then I think to myself that i experience alot of hurt in my life because of the decisions that i have allowed myself to make. People always tell me that im like this beautifully constructed puzzle but there..... is...... just a couple of pieces missing.

You know how you have that void in your heart and it hurst so bad that you end up doing some of the most ignorant things to fill that void,well that describes me to a T, but the question is not how am i about to use positive things to fill that void.The question is how did those pieces of my heart fade away.

Those so many events that i could share with you guys but i PROMISE it would take forever ! But I think my worst fear is living life with a broken heart that can not be put back together and loosing people that are important to me because i make there life miserable.